CHILD OR GROWN UP??

I was thinking today about my dad stopping me to do most of things by saying either im young or im grown up,its just to put a hold [ red signal] on my expressing thoughts at that moment.

  As usual me and dad had petty fight about some silly thing.I was talking to mom about some political guy who was being shown on television and we were having  agood discussion, inbetween dad shouts at me to stop the nonsense and he tells me your little kid just dont say such things against anyone.But whats the point in proving to my dad that im old enough for somethings atleast.But i just keep my thought to myself and keep quite.

   Today it was tuesday and I asked mom to give me the cash to pay my fees and to my horror mom says urnot old enoughto take such amount with me and she stops further argument by saying its not safe to carry such cash along withme.I think its all rubbish when would i ever know my true responsibility until im not trusted to fulfil my responsibility given to me?By this thought i just leave to college.Am i not wearing gold on my body,which wont be safe in their terms then how come Im allowed to wear them.

  Today its sunday morning,i was playing with kids on the street mom suddenly calls me and tells me to behave properly.I just get bewildered by her saying so and I question her back and she answers me im grown should understand it by now WHY.Sometimes she says me ur grown up kid try to act smart.

  I just dont understand is everyone thinks or assumes me as a play thing to them so that when ever they wish they can call me a kid or grownup.I WISH ANYONE CAN LET ME DECIDE WHAT I ACTUALLYAM I?